Bad news.

As I have mentioned in past blogs, things have been going really well for me. However this week my family and I have found out some bad news. I was going to start a new blog, but I figure this news may affect my losing weight efforts so I figured I would just added on to this one. First I’ll give a little back ground, my mother has had 2 kidney transplants in the last 15 years and because of this she has been on a cocktail of drugs. A side effect for someone on immunosuppressant drugs is a high risk of skin cancer and it is something she has been dealing with for quite sometime now. Up until this point, it hasn’t been anything major and something that she has been able to keep under control. However, in the past few months she has been dealing with a lesion on her shoulder/neck/back area. In June of this year she had it removed, but 2 months later it had come back with a vengeance. Then in the end of Aug she had it removed for the 2nd time, this time however they also noticed a lump near the affected area. Last week she had the lump biopsied and she received the test results yesterday. The news was not good. The cancer has spread in to her lymph nods and now we are waiting for the surgery date, which may be as soon as next week. Today I spent the day finding out everything I could and what I found wasn’t all positive and in actual fact this is way more serious then I thought. At this point I’m really scared and worried. I don’t know what to do? I know I’m not going to share my finding or feeling to anyone I know, including my family. I don’t want to cause any unnecessary dread, but I have a feeling my mom knows the seriousness of it and that she just didn’t want to scare me. I will give updates as I get them. Of course I’m hoping for the best. My mom and I are really close and I don't even wanted to consider what it would be like not to have her here.