Wednesday, May 26, 2010

I’m making myself crazy…

Okay so I’m not a spontaneous person. I like to plan and know what the end result will be before getting myself involved in anything and this surgery is driving me crazy. I know I can’t know what I’m going to look like and how much weight I’m going to lose, but that hasn’t stopped me from going on YouTube and watching before and afters and watching peoples journeys through weight loss surgery. I was up until 1:00 last night and surprise, surprise I couldn’t sleep when I finally turned off my iphone and when I did finally fall asleep, I was wakened by dreams (nightmares) of what I’m going to look like.

New rule…no iphone in bed and no more obsessing about what is too come or what the end result will be. I need to take this one-step at a time and chill out (easier said then done, I know).

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