Decision time

Okay, so right now there are 3 close people in my life that have joined Jenny Craig. I have a consultation on Sunday, to see if it's something that I would be interested in or can afford. I think I'm actually affraid of losing a significant amount of weight. It's almost like my security blanket. I mean I've been over weight since I can remember. It's who I am, it's how I became me. Now if I join and do this and lose a lot of weight, I'm scared of how it will change me or how insecure I will feel. I know that sounds weird, but i'm secure with who I am now. It took a lot of time, but I did it. I know that when I meet someone new, that they like me for me and if I were to lose a lot of weight and become someone completly different to look at then things will be different. I don't know I'm just fretting. Maybe I'm using it as an excuse that to not go through with this. Well I guess well see.