A little about me and moving on...

Things are looking up and seem to be going my way. I love my job and I'm starting to finally get my finances in order. I'm hoping to buy my first place in the next year and I have great friends. I guess the only place I'm lacking is my love life or should I say lack there of. I just ended a 5 year friendship with someone I fell in love with the moment I met him. The problem was that he came out of the closet about 9 months after I met him, that and he has some mental issue. Mental illness runs in his family and I always thought that he would change or that I could change him (like most women). I couldn't, of course I couldn't. I still love him and I still want him in my life, but its just to hard for me. He's what people would call toxic. He's toxic for himself and everyone around him. Also when I told him I just could do this friendship anymore, he said that was okay and he's never contacted me since. I guess I shouldn't be surprised, considering he lives in his own world and the only thing he cares about is himself. But I think that is what that hurt the most, the fact that he didn't care enough to fight, to hold on, to want to keep me in his life. I've finally come to the realization that the friendship was only held together by me and my love for him. The only problem is, is that I wasted 5 years from 21 to 26 loving him and being with him. I know that wasn't his fault and that it was my choice, but it still makes my a little angry. I'm slowly getting over the whole thing and like I said things are looking up and I'm moving on.