The struggle of my weight continues. I have recently made the decision to look into gastric bypass. I know that it is a paramount decision for my life, but it is that or nothing at this point. Everything in my life is going well, I’m happy, I’m happy with the direction that my life has been going thus far and I feel that I no longer suffer from depression. It has been a long while since I have felt that down and I truly do feel I have conquered that part of myself. I’m in a good place in my life to make such a tremendous decision and know that I’m going to be able to handle it and all that it will bring for me.
I wake up every morning feeling I live in a fat suite, one that I can just unzip out of it. I feel like this was never the body I was supposed to have. I’m a vegetarian and have been for over 3 years, I always opt for the stairs instead of the elevator. I want to be more active, but regrettable my weight often holds me back. I don’t know how it came to be that I got to have this body, as I have been overweight ALL of my life and although I know this is not going to be easy and in actual fact will probably be the hardest thing I will ever do in my life, I’m ready now to make the commitment.
Now at this point I do not know if it will happen. All I know is that I have made the decision to go forward and pursue it. I have a doctor’s appointment this week and I’m hoping my doctor will support my decision. I will be using this forum to keep log of the events and to put down in writing the experience of it all.
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