Time...

I’m feeling like I’m in a crossroads right now. Not knowing what is going to happen with the surgery and not know what my future holds. I don’t know what to do. I’m in a good place in my life and I am happy but something’s just doesn’t feel right, something’s missing. Not feeling in control of my feelings is not something I’m used too. Not being able to figure out exactly what I want and intellectualize everything, is not me. I don’t know what’s going on and I don’t really like it. I know I just need to give myself time and that everything will work itself out. I just hope that it ends up being sooner rather then later.