12th weigh in and my first big set back

I gained 3.5 pounds this week. Granted I was sick and couldn't work out and when I did start feeling better I went drinking, but still I gained 3.5 pounds. It sucks and I'm not happy, but this is for the rest of my life so 3.5 pounds isn't a lot. I know what I have to do.

11th weigh in

Okay so I lost a pound. I know I'm capable of losing so much more so I'm a little disappointed with myself. A pound is still better then staying the same or gaining, so I am happy about that.

On an update regarding my mom, she has an appointment with a surgon on Sept 28 and with an oncologist on Oct 3. I'm going to try and go with her to her oncologist appointment. My sister-in-law who resently lost her father to cancer, recommend that we all go for support. I'll probabaly give an update after the 3rd.

Bad news.

As I have mentioned in past blogs, things have been going really well for me. However this week my family and I have found out some bad news. I was going to start a new blog, but I figure this news may affect my losing weight efforts so I figured I would just added on to this one. First I’ll give a little back ground, my mother has had 2 kidney transplants in the last 15 years and because of this she has been on a cocktail of drugs. A side effect for someone on immunosuppressant drugs is a high risk of skin cancer and it is something she has been dealing with for quite sometime now. Up until this point, it hasn’t been anything major and something that she has been able to keep under control. However, in the past few months she has been dealing with a lesion on her shoulder/neck/back area. In June of this year she had it removed, but 2 months later it had come back with a vengeance. Then in the end of Aug she had it removed for the 2nd time, this time however they also noticed a lump near the affected area. Last week she had the lump biopsied and she received the test results yesterday. The news was not good. The cancer has spread in to her lymph nods and now we are waiting for the surgery date, which may be as soon as next week. Today I spent the day finding out everything I could and what I found wasn’t all positive and in actual fact this is way more serious then I thought. At this point I’m really scared and worried. I don’t know what to do? I know I’m not going to share my finding or feeling to anyone I know, including my family. I don’t want to cause any unnecessary dread, but I have a feeling my mom knows the seriousness of it and that she just didn’t want to scare me. I will give updates as I get them. Of course I’m hoping for the best. My mom and I are really close and I don't even wanted to consider what it would be like not to have her here.

10th weigh in

Wow...I lost 4.2 pounds this week. I went out every night this week and I still managed to lose weight. I can't believe it. I was in so much disbelielf when I steped on that scale. Anyway, I'm really happy and so proud of myself. I think the reason I was able to do it, was I walked every chance I got. Fingers crossed I can lose just as much next week :)

9th weigh in

Well I had a bad week and I gained a pound. Boo :( I've been going out so much these last few weeks, that it finally caught up to me. This week is my birthday and I'm going out every single night. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't want to gain next week too. Anyway, I'm going to try and exercise as much as possible to balance it all out. We'll see what happens. My fingers are crossed that I can make the right choices.

8th weigh in (2 months)

Okay so here I thought I had another bad week, but in actual fact I lost 2 pounds. That means in total I've lost 20 pounds. I can't believe it. I'm so happy and proud of myself.