Good news all around...

So it's been a long time, I know. A lot has happened since my last post. I went to Dominican Republic in March and I had such a good time. When I came back I decided to join Dr.Bernstein and I've lost another 20 pounds. I'm now down over 50 pounds since last June.

My mom finished her treatments the week after I came back from my trip. It got really bad, her skin burned off and she was in a lot of pain. It was one of the hardest things I have ever seen my mom go through. None of us were prepared for how bad it would get. Anyway, she is back to herself now and she recovered really fast after her last treatment. My mom and dad went to Cuba 2 weeks after her treatments ended. I think it was really good for both of my parents.

Latest update...

I still have not gone back to Jenny. I'm really sick of the food, but I have managed to keep most of the 40 pounds off. I'm thinking about maybe trying Dr. Bernstein in April. It's cover by my benefits, but I'm just not sure. I really just want to drop the weight fast, I already know I can keep it off and I really think that if I lost a lot more weight I would be more active, because it wouldn't be so hard. Anyway, we will see.

I'm really hoping to go down south, the last week last of March. I'm just waiting on a friend of mine to get the time off and then we are going to book. I can really use a hot, relaxing vacation.

As for my mom, she is in the middle of her radiation. It's a lot harder then she thought it would be. I've switched my shifts to 12-8, so that I can drive her every morning downtown for her treatments. I hope this is it, I'm not sure how much more she can go though. I mean really how much can one person take in a life time. She deserve a break.

I know it's been a while...

I've stalled. I haven't gained, but I haven't lost either for quite sometime now. I just haven't been into it. Things are going well though. Work is good, I'm still planning on moving out this year and in March I'm planning a trip down south. I've been super busy, going out everynight and just enjoying life. I really do need to slow down though. I'm spending money like crazy and I've had no time to do anything. My rooms a mess, I have a ton of laundry and I need to catch up on much needed sleep. Anyway, that is where I am now. I really need to get back on track and focus.

I need to move out...

Okay so I currently live with my parents and have now for the last 2 almost 3 years and it's starting to take its toll on me and my parents. They don't understand that I'm sick of being questioned and having to explain every move I make and unfortunately because of that I now have an attitude every time I have to answer any of there questions. Well that just blew up in my face because now both my parents are mad at me because of my attitude problem. I feel like a teenager. I hate this, I hate conflict and of course, they take no responsibility and can do no wrong. When I tell them why I have an attitude and that I’m sick of always being questions for every little move I make they say my attitude is unwarranted. I really need to move out and get my own place finally. I was going to wait until April 1st, because I’m planning a trip to Germany in March and my mom is going to go through her radiation in February and March, but I think I’m going to start looking now for maybe February 1st. The only thing is though I think I will have to stop Jenny, because I don’t think I will be able to afford my own place, my new car and Jenny. I don’t know, we will see.

I understand, because I've been there...

I just found out that Scott took his own life. I'm sad, it makes me really sad because I've been there and I understand how he must have felt. I have suffered from some pretty major depression and I have been suicidal before. I know how painful it is and that there isn't a lot the people around you can do to help you. I wish there was something I could have done, I wish I had reached out to him and I wish we had become better friends. I don’t know what happens after you die, but I hope that wherever he is, he’s at peace. No one should have to live with depression.

Tragedies

In the past two months, I have heard about 4 people who have passed and they were all in there 20's. The first was Josie, who I've spoken about in a previous post. Then last week I found out that a guy I used to work with, Scott passed away (reason unknown). On the same day, I also found out that my old roommate’s younger brother was murdered and then today, today I found out a friend of mine form high school's fiancé has passed away. I don't know what's going on, it's overwhelming. All these people were here one day and gone the next. Except for Scott none of them and there families knew that there last days were there last. I'm struggling to rap my head around it all. What are we supposed to learn from it all? I don't think I can take anymore of this so I beg everyone to please be careful, drive safe and live each day, as if it's your last.

Back on track

Okay so I'm back on track and officially 40 pounds lighter. I know I'm taking this slow, but I think that it is the only way to succeed.

A good start too 2008

I decided after more then 2 weeks to finally step on a scale. I haven't been to Jenny in like 3 maybe even 4 weeks now. However, I do have an appointment for this coming Sunday. Anyway, so I did it and I was in so much shock because I'm now down 38 pounds. I couldn't believe, that is almost 40 pounds and I'm hoping that's what it will be on Sunday. I'm going to keep my fingers crossed.